today’s list:
-coconut conditioner, and the obsessive methodic mood i get into when i shave my legs (it’s a problem, seriously i can’t stop staring and touching, i’m obsessed with my own body, and there are certain hollows and textures that make it easy for me to see how someone could love me, on a good day, like today).
-realizing that no matter how little i have in the way of things, my older relatives will always think it is too much, despite the fact they have houses packed to the rafters with stuff, it is everywhere, and i have merely a few books, some clothes, and some makeup, which doesn’t feel like much at all, really.
-working the first saturday night i’ve worked in ages, wondering who i’ll be shifted on with, because at the moment the dynamics are so varied at work that these things really matter
-talking to my brother about living in london, where to look, what tube lines to live near. feeling like an actual useful, helpful, older sister for a change.
-being far too excited about living in the new house. new housemates, a new area, a new bedroom i can actually have things on the wall in? exciting.
-finding out that the way to keep me quiet is to let me do my manicure with nails inc. magnetic polish, because i literally can’t stop staring at it, it looks amazing. i am such an easily distracted child sometimes.
-the big sleep movie, man it never gets old.
