today in a list:
-not packing, though i should be. also, not tidying, though i should be.
-smoking very little to try not angering the gremlin currently residing in my lungs.
-dinner tonight at the silver jubilee with my mum’s partner bob and his friend kevin. looking forward to a conversation with an adult not at work that doesn’t involve criticism of all the minute things i do.
-woody allen’s zelig, for like, the millionth time, and thoughts of how malleable my personality is, and whether or not that’s a good thing.
-lee’s ‘i think you’ll be so bored by this trade’ said yesterday, resounding in my ears today. will i? i’m not at the moment. i don’t expect every fulfilling thing in my life to come from one place any more. is that maturity or resignation? i don’t know. the way he said it wasn’t offensive, not like the way most people say it. which is probably why i even am considering it as a valid statement.
-this time next week i will be moved.
-reading david byrne’s blog obsessively. thinking of how the people who inspire me are always good at so many things it’s staggering. could i ever be one of those people? i’m the ultimate dilettante.
