February 2012
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nothing's ever clear
as a housewarming present for the new place, ed bought me a little yellow teapot. it’s so cute and perfect, and i’m sitting here laughing to myself cos i forgot to nick a couple of teabags yesterday at work so my first evening/morning in this new place, when i get there later, is going to involve an emergency teabag stop. brilliant, well done me.
other than that i am totally...
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January 2012
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today's list:
-coconut conditioner, and the obsessive methodic mood i get into when i shave my legs (it’s a problem, seriously i can’t stop staring and touching, i’m obsessed with my own body, and there are certain hollows and textures that make it easy for me to see how someone could love me, on a good day, like today).
-realizing that no matter how little i have in the way of things, my...
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No Great Illusion: What 20-Somethings Want →
You want a job, a vacation, heath insurance, validation, a back rub, a scalp massage at the place where you get your haircut, people who are jealous of you, an ex who won’t stop texting you when they’re drunk, Twitter followers, happiness maybe sorta, someone to buy you lunch at a fancy…
yep, all of it.
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today in a list:
-not packing, though i should be. also, not tidying, though i should be.
-smoking very little to try not angering the gremlin currently residing in my lungs.
-dinner tonight at the silver jubilee with my mum’s partner bob and his friend kevin. looking forward to a conversation with an adult not at work that doesn’t involve criticism of all the minute things i do.
-woody...
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slips, trips, and falls.
last night my calves kept cramping up in my sleep and waking me up. i don’t even know how or why that could happen but at the moment the things my body does are doing nothing more than infuriating me. i felt ill as fuck and just wanted to rest, and there was this, what, internal mutiny that kept waking me up? things are definitely hard at the moment.
yesterday, three seperate times people...
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i belong to the hurricane
there have been a lot of broken glasses and slammed doors this weekend. yesterday was difficult; i was on a total high for about two hours and then i made a few minor fuckups and two north london clubs lost which made the people in the pub more difficult to deal with and it just became really difficult to feel in any way, shape or form like i’m good at what i do. the evening redeemed the day...
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nothing but green lights
crocheting a blue dress from a sixties pattern and i feel like i’ve fallen foul of the ‘this is probably too small for me because i took old clothes sizings at face value’ deal but i just keep fucking going cos i crochet too loose anyways and i am pretty sure it’ll all be alright. yesterday i watched anna karina’s every move in bande a part, since my boyfriend has a...
“Above all, I wouldn’t want people to think that I want to prove anything. I...”
– Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina (via distantheartbeats)
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cooking for intermediates: carbohydrate edition
-all i have done today/plan to do is eat. and eat starchy foods to feel warm and heavy compared to how outside feels and looks. tons of toast for breakfast, a chilli garlic mushroom egg fried noodle thingy for lunch, and potato onion and stilton pie with green beans for dinner. yup. we won’t even go into the amount of chocolate biscuits eaten, or the bottle of meantime brewery london stout i...
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a list for this weekend:
-manicure and facemask this afternoon and more buttered toast than a normal human should be able to swallow.
-meeting boy for stout followed by burritos/pizza and a huge hug to make yesterday go away from my mind forever.
-reuniting with lizzy and pigeon (university buds) for copious amounts of beer and fun times before staying at ed’s house.
-postmodernism exhibition at the v&a plus...
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happy belated new year.
sometimes i have weeks where i feel like life is doing its best to get me down, and this week has been one of them. disappointing flat viewings, clashing antlers with people who seem to be attempting to make me miserable, lots of early mornings, cold weather, and being flat broke. i’m not as easily defeated as i used to be in this context, though. sure, there have been days where i’ve...
December 2011
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it's a wonderful life.
i am finally, sort of, starting to feel like christmas is happening. it’s odd, you’d think, in my job, being surrounded by christmas parties, decorations, and music all day and night, that i’d anticipate it happening a bit better but every year it sneaks up on me and i don’t realize it’s imminent, not properly, until a week or so before. the presents are all bought...
wherewolves asked: The scarf: green. Preferably something sage-y, but I'm more than happy to go with whatever you like best. If you're happy to do it, I'd be really thrilled (but if not, obviously you know etc etc, still love you bb). If you let me know how much you think, and how I can get it to you (bank transfer, PayPal etc), I'll get on it.
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say you wanna get in
I am at the point in my life where I wonder if I treat certain experiences as stimulants. I already know about the minor substance based ones that prop up my day; caffeine, nicotine, sugar. But I am realizing that at every stage of my life there has been something that keeps me going through everything else. When I was younger it was relationships, which I think is why I was such an unhappy,...
November 2011
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if you can hear a piano fall you can hear me...
so there’s about a million things i should have told the internet about by now. i’ve been keeping count. and i’m drunk and i just finished the golden notebook and a single man in tandem plus blackout drunking at a recent staff party so now is probably not the time to go into it. i might anyway, cos that’s the kind of girl i am.
-i have been here for what, aaages and i have...
“My goal is to always come from a place of love, but sometimes you just have to...”
– RuPaul (via funkyfest)
curlyingenue:
kn0ckout:
Dead Leaves on the...
“Fashion is one of the very few forms of expression in which women have more...”
– Fashion is a Feminist Issue: Greta Christina (via genghisgenghiscohen)
Suddenly my wardrobe crisis seems a bit more noble.
(via brinley)
wherewolves asked: Kirsty Kirsty Kirsty, could I ever convince you to let me pay you money to knit me a scarf like this one: kirstylouloumitchelldottumblrdotcom/post/9834638006/the-dominique-circle-scarf-should-be-available ? Because I would pay you £SO MUCH MONEY (stupid non-link-allowing tumblr fucks)